College 101

I'm here. Finally. I moved into my dorm on Saturday and so far I've been living alone 'cause my roommate won't be in until the 26th. I feel so poor here. My room is so scantily clad that I just want to run to Bed Bath & Beyond with my refund check and splurge. But I won't do that because if I do I'll be completely broke. Seeing that I am now a Grade A responsible adult I have to use that check [when I get it] for necessary good and not material evil. I'm starting a checking account with the school, I'm gonna make out a budget, I'm gonna wait 30 minutes before buying something that I don't absolutely need. I'm on top of things.

Before moving in I was @ Fish Camp which was long and hot, but I got a couple of buddies out of it, so that makes up for the 8 pounds I lost from sweating so much.

I'm not home sick yet. I'm just floating from day to day and so far surviving. I've meet a new person everyday, I've been invited to a Frat party, I stood up infront of a group of people and sung the Aggie War Hymn which is something I have never done in my life. I'm feeling okay. But I was out in our dorm's courtyard the other day and I heard a girl talking about this boy...Apparently this boy had never sent an email before and was boosting about being really popular in high school, but the strangest thing was that he is from Crockett and that's what caught my attention. I asked her his name...."Alex" she said. I didn't know him so I asked for a last name..."L"she said and my mouth dropped. That's Grn[named changed]!!! It's been a while since I posted anything so ya'll don't know that Grn changed his name to Alex, came out as being bisexual***, went through hazing, and has a bunch of new questionable friends. Yes, all this in one summer. But hearing that girl talk I realized that it was worse than I thought: He was rewriting his past by trying to pretend like he was all that in high school. Scandalous! I am so glad that I've come down here with my own name and all my flaws uncovered and I've still been accepted. Now I don't want to see Grn...Why? Because then he'll try to pull me into his fake world of wannabe models, drunkards, anorexics,and all that other gloomy teen problems shit that I just got away from. I try to be accepting and I don't want to have to lose a friend but I'm gonna have to tell him about himself if I see him. I'm feeling bold, ready to take down all my problems before they over power me, [cliche' alert!!] ready to take flight with my own wings instead of gliding on someone else's back.

I'm not gonna pretend like I'm not scared, though. I'm down here with no family, a bunch of friends I have to break in, and a few survival skills. I'm scared out of my Gosh Damn mind!!!! I've just adopted a new attitude of not letting things worry me so much anymore. I guess I really am evolving.

**When we were walking around during my orientation in June he kept looking @ the same boys as me and making [Gulp :( ] sexual comments......

[Monique was last seen running for the bathroom with hand over mouth]