The Truth About Ashlee

I’m afraid for Ashlee. Maybe I’m actually afraid for myself, but right now that’s not the point. I was chatting with her today on Yahoo! and I asked her if she knew when she was heading off to school You know what she told me? She told me that she didn’t even know what college she was going to. Seeing that I was suckled on the concept that college was the next logical step, I was horrified. Even though I’m not long coming out of the dilemma myself, but Ashlee didn’t have as many choices as me.[Don’t I sound nice] A life without direction is the ultimate sin in my eyes. Back to Ashlee. She says that she doesn’t want to attend SFA because her brother goes there and it would be too weird. I understood where she was coming from, she wants to go somewhere where she can be her own person, but I was still worried about her going Somewhere in the Fall. Ashlee says she’s going to Angelina College then maybe transferring. Well anything’s better than nothing. But that’s not the real issue.

Ashlee is super shy. It’s not that occasional shyness but the debilitating kind. And her being strange doesn’t help. The truth is that Ashlee is a little retarded. She told me once that she was in the “slow” classes when she was younger but was taken out by her mother. You can tell anyway because she has a kinda slow way about her, almost downish. But I don’t think she actually knows. Her mental stability isn’t the only problem...Ashlee is fashionly challenged. Yes, even more than I. It’s not the clothes fault, it’s Ashlee’s because she doesn’t dress for her shape, the result is clothes that are a little too short that hang in unflattering ways and not to mention the stretch marked skin that shows. And she comes to school with her hair the way she wakes up. I think she notices this part of her flaws and this is probably the main reason she doesn’t go away from home. But it’s not like she isn’t beautiful because she cleans up quite nicely. And she has a mother and cheerleader sisters that she can ask for help but I don’t think she wants it.[If you think I’m downing her, you should see how she treats me to my face.]

I really hope that Ashlee can break away from her shell. I really don’t her to become a shut in.